The cost of choosing freedomFeb 05, 2021
When we decide to carve out our own path there can be a period of adjustment as we move from a defined work role with a predictable income, into the far less predictable world of self-employment or entrepreneurship.
In choosing freedom we are choosing anxiety, because we can't see the exact pathway, and we can't predict the outcome with certainty.
Feeling some level of anxiety is normal, but not comfortable.
There will be periods where we bravely take action and cast our work out into the world. Then we have the anxious wait to see how people will react to it, whether they will react to it at all, and how we'll react to their reaction.
There will be periods where we spend time, energy and money creating things we think are worth sharing. Only to doubt their value, and experience resistance to putting our work 'out there'.
We will wake in the wee hours worrying about how much money is going out, and whether enough will come back in.
We will wonder if it's all worth it, and whether we actually have what it takes.
When it all gets too uncomfortable we might dip back into safety.
In order to relieve the anxiety we opt-in to things that are practical, measurable, predictable. We will put the responsibility onto a mentor, author, or training course to tell us what to do. We may decide to go and get a 'normal job'.
We may stop developing our content for a period while we try once more to figure out who we are, what we’re doing and why.
But after a time this 'safety' of not showing up, not connecting with our audience and not making our contribution becomes stifling.
We become restless.
We're reminded of why we decided to carve out our own path in the first place.
We begin to take action again almost out of rebellion rather than courage.
We choose to chase the more fulfilling, the more meaningful, the more challenging, the more demanding.
We choose the anxiety.
We do it for ourselves. We do it to set an example for our children. We do it to make a difference in the world.